I really struggled trying to come up with a title for this post, and the content. So far i’ve been trying to ignore whats going on in the world. I’ve been trying to keep calm and carry on. But its becoming increasingly difficult. Covid-19 is affecting all of us. On a personal level our business is struggling and both my husband and I are considered to be in the high risk group (low immune systems) for serious complications if we contract the virus. Its extremely worrying. Whether we can survive, financially, is extremely stressful, adding to the possibility of one of us ending up in hospital if we fall ill.
I cant say i’m worried about dying if I catch this thing. I guess I feel like i’m a bit invincible. I know that sounds stupid, but i’m a smoker. I’ve lived the last 20 years of my life saying “It wont happen to me.” Daft, I know, but with dogs that need walking and a business that needs running, neither of us can stay indoors and shut ourselves off from the world.
So yesterday I went to Bluewater. Crazy? Stupid? Possibly…but what shocked me was the amount of…how do I put it?…over 60’s that were there. In fact, i’d go as far as to say the majority of shoppers yesterday morning were over 70! I even saw one lady with a walking frame. Is that the British spirit? These people lived through WWII. Was their attitude “No bloody virus is going to stop me from going shopping!” I admire their determination, their grit. I, on the other hand, was wandering around being conscious of every interaction and everything I touched.
It was nice to get away from the news for a few hours…pretend life hasn’t changed. I’m scared…we’re all scared…Life has changed, and the moment I returned home and switched on the TV I was reminded that we are at war. I just hope we can defeat the enemy…