It’s been snowing on and off, since Sunday here in Kent. We haven’t had it this bad for years, and it’s the first time its been ankle deep since we moved to this house 5 years ago. I’m not a fan of the snow I have to say. It makes me feel trapped as I wont drive in it and anxious as I hate the idea of my loved ones being out in it too. Perhaps that’s why I’ve not been sleeping these past few nights? Or is it just the underlying stress of everything that’s going on right now? I am absolutely exhausted and finding it hard to string more than a couple of words together lol. Still, I did manage 6 hours last night, the first time since last week!
Yesterday (or was it the day before?…Everything is blurring into one at the moment lol) a friend of mine posted to her blog 5 Tips to Transform Chaos to Calm and mentioned a saying I’d never heard before. Item 4 on her list was “Forgive Yourself” and the saying she mentioned is “…pencils wouldn’t have erasers if people didn’t make mistakes.” Why have I never heard that before?
A few days ago we decided not to sell the house. We’re going to stay and fight for it, in the hopes that we can come out the other side with our business intact and a roof over our heads. I’ve been beating myself up over this decision from the moment we let our perfectly good buyer go (probably another reason I’m not sleeping). Staying put and sitting it out in some ways is the easier option, but in other ways definitely harder than selling up. But either route was going to be stressful.
Any decision you make can be a mistake. Either way you will never know if it was the right choice, because you’ll never know how it would have turned out if you’d taken the other path. I have to work on forgiving myself…accept that I might make a mistake…a bad decision and move on from it. But wouldn’t it be good if there really was a magic eraser that you could use to just rub things out 😉